These are the personal journals of members of the expeditions of the Great Downward Engineering Company into the realm of Rappan Athuk. These records may be incomplete, as not all adventurers may make it back to tell the tale of what happens down there.
The circus comes to town.
The Diary of Sally Wossname
The atmosphere on this boat is amazing. The crew are excited to have Mark back on board, and he’s looking forward to getting away from those horrible adventurers and their sweaty caves. I hope this is the start of a whole new chapter in our romance.
Day 2:
Well Mark didn’t invite me up for breakfast, but then he didn’t spend the night with those two tramps either, so I count it as a win. I’ll drop in to see him in his cabin once I’m feeling a bit less queasy. The crew said it’ll take a few days to get my sea legs.
Day 3:
So much vomit. Why is there corn? I didn’t even eat corn!
Day 4:
I knocked on his cabin door, but he just growled and shout that he wasn't hungry. I don't think he's in a good mood.
Day 5:
Finally caught a glimpse of Mark in his cabin today, sitting majestically at his desk and poring over important looking documents. There were a lot of empty bottles around him. The tramps were busy chatting up the helmsman while I staked out a good vantage point in the shade of the sails. One of the crew was taking him his lunch while another carried a few unlabelled bottles. I do hope he’ll call for me soon.
Day 6:
He came out of his cabin today, walked straight up to the wheel and spun it hard to the right. He then shouted at the poor marine to “listen to the waves” and stalked back into the cabin.
A few minutes later the boy up on the mast shouted out about “rocks on portside” but we missed them.
It was very heroic.
Day 7:
I’ve been on this boat a week and Mark hasn’t spoken to me yet. I’m beginning to think he doesn’t want me here.
Day 9:
The tramps have both taken up with Marines. They tried to hide it from me, but it’s so obvious. I’m the only one here that deserves Mark. I’ve started working in the kitchen so that I can volunteer to take his food to him once the crew let me.
Day 10:
He didn’t recognise me! Me!! I took his meal to him tonight, and he just waved me off to the sideboard and didn't even take his eyes off the letter he was reading. What could be so important? I noticed the crest of the Mirrax Marines on the reports on his desk, along with some maps of islands.
Day 11:
This morning I cleared my throat while carrying in his breakfast. He looked very cross but didn’t stop working on his map. I should have known better. Tonight I’ll just stand there quietly.
Saw him reading something with a terrible, horrible sketch on the side. Some monstrous bird with three pairs of wings. the paper was yellow, the writing all brown and faded. I could see a really old-looking Mirrax crest on the paper too. It turned my stomach but I stayed there for near half an hour watching him lose himself in his work. Eventually he stopped, took a long pull from a bottle that smelled like fermented jerky, and fell asleep at the desk. I let myself out.
Day 12:
This voyage isn't what anyone thought. Hearsay has us going all the way north to the Sand Jungles! The crew are nervous. Even 'Dirty' Lizzy stalks around the deck, but that could just be her normal demeanour.
Mark has started talking. Not to me, but to the room. He talks about some “Black Scar” being “the Source”, and that the Jungles should be prepared for the worst. It sounded like one half of a conversation. Why are we headed towards somewhere if it’s going to be so bad?
Day 13:
I heard Mark describing something truly awful today to his invisible conversation partner. Violent storms, death itself flying on six terrifying wings. He went into more detail about ship positioning and counter strategies but it was all too much. The next thing I knew, he was standing over me with a concerned, but hard, expression on his face. He called in some marines and they carried me to my bed.
Day 14:
The ship weighed anchor at Skor, and Mark threw the tramps and I off the ship. 'Nonessential personnel', he called us.
I still think he feels for me, I could see the pain in his eyes and I knew he was just trying to protect us.
I hope he is OK up in the jungles...
I'm on a boat motherfucker
What was that crash? It sounded like something large and wooden striking a hard surface with significant force. What was Captain Scarlet doing now. Huh, what foolish derivative name that fool had picked for himself. He was clearly no captain anyway, likely just some rich noble boy who's daddy had bought him a boat to mess about on with his friends for sport.
Well, what a sport he'd picked for himself. He probably told all the whores he shelled out coin for that he was a great hunter of pirates. Maybe they even believed him. I bet he didn't mention what he did with the 'pirates' he captured - the torture, the forced fights to the death, the other things Lobar didn't want to think about but the screams from which echoed through this ruin at strange times. Was he doing it to gain favour from some hideous profane god, or was the man just some kind of freak who took pleasure in these things? Ralph didn't know, and it didn't really matter.
Another crash came from somewhere in the ruin, followed by screams. What was he doing now? He saw movement and from out of the darkness appeared a figure - a halfling man wearing a stupidly ostentatious hat. Just like one of scarlet's men. "Right worm maggot, you're next!" he...bellowed? There was something strange about that voice. Ralph didn't know many halflings, but he was pretty sure their voices didn't sound that...musical. And that hat...?
"Get ready," the halfling squeaked "you're leaving!" Ralph was about to ask when his thinking was interrupted by a minotaur charging out of the darkness. A minotaur in a shiny silver breastplate holding a mighty sword. It smashed into the bars of Ralph's crude cell, smashing them to the ground. As they fell a mighty laugh erupted from the monster. "Last one, ahahahaha!"
With that the minotaur's form rippled and it was replaced with a woman. The colour of her skin gave her away as a native of the sand jungles, though the colour of her eyes was strangely out of place, and her right arm...emerging from the padding on the edge of her breastplate her fight arm looked grotesquely swollen and was sickly white, in bizzare counterpoint to the rest of her skin. She was wearing a black leather glove on her right hand, but with bare arms it hid nothing.
Somewhere behind her Ralph noticed other people, some of his fellow captives, gingerly following the woman and her halfling companion. "Ok, going now." The woman said "That man in the red coat dead. His coat was dumb, deserved to die for that, as well as doing stuff to you." She laughed at her own joke, then kept laughing. She gaffawed at her not particular funny joke for a good 15 seconds before straightening up. "Ok, so let's move." "I'll stop this act now." Said the halfing, and faded from existence, in the moment before she vanished Ralph thought he saw a tiny woman with butterfly wings take her place.
"What's happening?" Said one of the newly released captives. "You free now," said the woman " we killed scarlet, but if you want, would be nice for you to come with us." "Come with you?" said Ralph. "What do you want with us?". "Sailors." Said the woman. "Me and Erika here" she gestured vaguely in the air "bought ourselves a big nice ship, but didn't think about how we need a bunch o folk to sail it for us until after." Another mad laugh emerged. "Anyway, we need something to move things between the land and this island we have. We don't really have money to pay, but we give you food and rum and place to live."
It was certainly an offer...
Dead Again
Agamemnon perched awkwardly on the throne, his feet hooked into the elaborate arms of the chair, his back braced against the force cage. He stared down into the dead face of Severin Aerim. Ambient light, filtered through the damned red mist, played off his too-old eyes, making them seem like shimmering portals into the hellish planes.
The cleric looked around the room. Betty, turning her back on the shuddering door she'd barred with her axe, gored at a banshee whirling like a dervish above her; Joq was bouncing off any surface he could find, including the cage of force energy, hurling himself through the air at the undead horror. The banshee, potent though it was, was actually (finally!) having some trouble finding a way to adapt to the bizarre combination of airborne flurry and pure canny might that it found itself in the midst of. Across the cluttered library space Shades had barred the door near him and was surveying the room, his sharp eyes glinting with that by-now familiar combination of fear and cunning: back against the wall, facing overwhelming odds, the Lord of Mosswood's adrenaline-fueled opportunism had kicked in, ready to strike at the first crack in the enemy's defenses. Killingsworth was stood in place, his face slack and strained at the same time - the classic visage of a mind struggling for control of its own body. He was still ambulatory, so it could be Justin had possessed the magus. Agamemnon smirked at the thought of how obstreperous the ghost would find his friend's mind, and at the thought of how desperate the would-be king must be. Agamemnon realised he was right: destroy Severin and the day was theirs.
Agamemnon looked down at the face of the old man. There was a slight smirk on Severin's cracked lips, which moved as if he were trying to speak. Agamemnon felt no surprised as a devouring mist extruded itself into the chamber. He made a token effort to avoid inhalation but he knew it didn't matter. He'd never really expected to leave the confines of the cage. The devouring mist would take him, but not immediately, not in time to stop him destroying the parasitic Justin's anchor, and source of his power and the seat of his sanity.
Even as he felt his body shuddering under the sapping onslaught, as he felt his vitality ebbing away, he grinned even as he grimaced in pain, raised his sword and drove it into the head of the one-king of Skor.
I am going to die.
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Agamemnon opened his eyes and sat up stiffly. His body was aching. He looked around. He was in a glade, young birch trees swaying in a light breeze, early-morning sun filtering through the slight clouds, making the world pale. He rubbed his head gingerly. He and Snooks had gone drinking one night in the Salty Sabaton. The next morning he'd felt like this. At least this time Snooks wasn't standing beside his bed yelling at him to eat fried pork and drink more beer. Usually when you took rest on the Astral before passing to the place of your ending you felt no pain, but the last few times he had been here Agamemnon had increasingly felt the pain and the injury of his death. He idly wondered why; maybe it was something to do with the weakening of the planar boundaries.
A few minutes passed and he realised the aching and the nausea were not going to diminish. He rolled painfully to his feet and looked around. He didn't feel like he was alone. "Darach? Are you here?"
"I'm here Grazh." The Father of Elves smiled as he approached. Once again he was a relatively average-looking elf, handsome but not beautiful, with tousled fawn-coloured hair and simple green spun clothing.
Agamemnon smiled back. "I'm thinking of building a little cabin here. Somewhere to entertain when I visit."
Darach-Albith nodded. "I hear the Mirrax Marines offer fairly good death insurance. Maybe you should consider it."
The orc laughed, but the mention of Mirrax brought to mind Killingsworth. "Are my friends okay? Did we win the battle?"
"Justin has been dispersed and the undead armies have stood down. You can ask your compatriots for the details when you get back."
Agamemnon nodded, and examined the sky. You could never see the sun in Limbo. Sunlight, sure, but never the sun.
In the distance he saw, out the corner of his eye, a faint movement, a shadow that wasn't a shadow moving delicately between the almost completely still trees. He tried to focus on the movement, but couldn't. It was peripheral, ephemeral. It was something he could always feel near him but never see coming.
"Why is she here?"
Darach Albith inclined his head in her direction. "She is interested in you." He seemed about to say more, then didn't. After a moment he stepped up and placed a hand on the half-orc's shoulder. "Grazh, what's going on?"
Agamemnon shrugged uncomfortably. "What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean. Why do you keep dying?"
Agamemnon laughed, but it sounded forced even to his own ears. "Rappan Athuk is a dangerous place."
"You weren't in Rappan Athuk."
"That's a technicality."
"Yes, and you're a liar." The god was in front of him now, leaning down from a terrible height, looking directly into his eyes. "What are you doing down there Grazh?"
Agamemnon tried to break his god's gaze, but couldn't. Out the corner of his eye he could still see the Pale Lady flitting about between the trees, watching him, listening, taking an interest. "It's scary down there, you know?"
"So what, you're killing yourself out of fear? I don't buy it. Grazh ul'Kesh doesn't flee."
"But it's nice up here. We're all going to be destroyed anyway; I may as well end it up here, away from that place. Dying to Orcus will be torturous, but up here?" He looked around. This fragment of the Astral lacked vitality but it wasn't unpleasant. "Here we can just ... quietly cease."
"Fatalism? Really? Grazh ul'Kesh is not a fatalist."
"You seem to know a lot about what Grazh ul'Kesh is and isn't, elf." Agamemnon was angry. He got up and started pacing. "If you know me so well, dear Father, why don't you stop patronising me and just tell me what the problem is?"
"Fine." Darach-Albith was angry too. The priest tried not to be scared by that. "There is only one thing that Grazh ul'Kesh has ever fled, and that's himself."
Agamemnon blinked. "Is that it? That's all you've got? Some metaphysical bullshit about the self? I expected better."
"Really? You expected better of me? What sort of pathetic greenskin runs out on his friends because he's a widdle bit scared, eh? Is that heroic behaviour? Does that sound heroic to you, orc?"
"I never said I was heroic you son of a bitch," Agamemnon was trying to control his anger, but for the first time since his personal revelation back at Greenhome in the Dales it was taking him over. "I was fine without you. I was a half-orc eking out a living on the outskirts of society until you stuck your nose into my life and fucked everything up."
"Really? You were fine without me, were you? Tell me again what happened to Emi?"
"... you cunt." Before he knew what he was doing Agamemnon had thrown a punch at Darach-Albith. He wasn't even conscious of what he was doing, it was just happening, like it did before, he felt removed from himself, like he was watching for the back of a long, dark hall as his body acted on its own.
"I see you've remembered how to be vile, half-man. I see you've remembered how to be violent." Agamemnon kept swinging as the elf talked, but he was nowhere near connecting any of his punches. "Now try to remember what happened when you did nothing." An image of Emi's beautiful face popped into his mind. He didn't even know who he was punching any more, he just kept charging the elf-god who stepped nimbly past him every time. "Your inaction kills people Grazh. Do you remember that? Do you remember people dying because you wouldn't do anything to save them?" Agamemnon could taste salt on his lips. He was crying. He thought he might be screaming as well.
"Now tell me why you keep dying!"
"WHERE'S MORT?!" The cleric finally landed a punch to the god's chest as Darach-Albith stopped moving and stood there, staring at him, staring into him. "Why did Mort leave me down here alone! Where the fuck is Mort?!" Agamemnon slumped to the ground. He was vaguely aware of Darach-Albith moving to sit next to him. "He was the orc I couldn't be. He was strong, and noble, and then ... he left. He just left. I can't do what he does. We need him. I need him.
"And Snooks. I'm not a good man. I can try, but ... I'm not a good man. Snooks ... Snooks was a good man. And he died. And then Kruin died, and left. They all die, Darach! They all die, or they leave. It's hell down there! You have no idea. It's constant, never-ending horror, and pain, and fear, and I could do it, for a while I could do it, I thought I could survive, I could keep going, I could honour the fallen and protect the living, I could be that man, but then Mort left us, and we were trapped down there in the Bloodways and Darach I'm scared, it's just me and Shades now and then it'll be just me and I'll be alone and I don't want to be alone down there!"
~~~
The two men sat in the glade, looking at the vacant, peaceful sky.
"I'm not going to pretend I didn't point you in the direction of Rappan Athuk. But I've never compelled you to go in. I'm not that sort of god. My friendship doesn't require your obedience, as should be apparent by now. If you don't want to go back, don't. Stay here. Come to my Great Tree and don't return. You will always be welcome there. Or go back and be with your friends, and fight with your friends to try to stop what's happening. It's your decision, Grazh."
Agamemnon nodded. "Grazh ul'Kesh doesn't abandon his friends."
"If you're going back, go back to fight, and to win. Don't be the weak link that the forces of destruction can use to tear apart the Great Downwards Engineering Company. Do you understand?"
Agamemnon nodded again. He lay down on the ground in the centre of the glade. It was peaceful here. He closed his eyes and listened to the faint rustling of the almost completely still leaves. "Thank you Darach. I couldn't see the problem until you showed me." He paused. "Again." He listened for the approaching light that signaled the passage through the planes created by the divine magic of resurrection and let himself fall into it. "I want to be with my friends."
~~~
I am not going to die.
~~~
The two gods stood side by side in the centre of the eternal glade, looking at the Astral sun that only they could see.
"He was obsessed with death."
"He was."
"He could have come to me."
"He could."
"You would not let him."
"No."
"Why?"
Darach-Albith turned to the Pale Lady and smiled. "He's my friend."
She studied his face for an eternity. "A good reason."
Yey or neigh?
Both she and Mort waited a few moments, watching in avid anticipation
Crusher slowly raised his glossy black head, and turned to look at them. Eerily, his lips parted with deliberate intelligence, his mouth opening slowly and a silken voice emerged
"Heed my words, mortals. You would do well to mark this day, for this was the day I ascended.
Know that Devils will think back to this day and prostrate themselves in fear. Angels shall weep blood and tear at their wings. Men will remember me with loosened bowels. Elves will stop in their tracks and sing their songs of mourning. Ogres will hold each other and wail. All will know of me, and that knowledge shall bring terror."
Crushers voice raised strongly, spittle flying everywhere
"I will walk all of the lands on all of the worlds. Trees will wither and die in my wake. Rivers will dry up. Mountains will tear asunder. Gods shall avert their gaze, as not to draw my attention. My merest touch shall destroy, and every breath shall kill.
All life in all the universes will gather to pay me homage. Mares shall line up to receive my seed, and my spawn shall form an army of hoof and flame. They will crush the spirit of all life ever. They will control it all, and they shall shape it and form it into something worthy of me."
Crusher dropped down into a conspiratorial whisper
"Consider yourselves fortunate, for you were the first to know of my glory. You two shall be amongst my most favoured servants."
Mort and Tabitha looked incredulously at each other for a long, awkward moment, before Mort abruptly landed a mighty blow to Crushers head.
"Shut up you stupid horse! Horses don't do stuff like that. You're going to carry me around and maybe bite people I tell you to, that's it"
Tabitha started to softly laugh "Sorry Mort, there is a reason why I don't dabble in the Druidic arts."
"I wanted Crusher to be cool and smart like that parrot Killingsworth has. You turned Crusher into a MASSIVE dick" Mort was arm-waving to emphasise
Tabitha was belly laughing by this point "Well, maybe it's just a bad first impression"
"Well, TURN HIM BACK!" Morts green face was turning a shade of purple.
"Whats done is done Mort. Channel that energy he has towards something useful and maybe he will turn out alright"
Mort sighed heavily before grabbing Crushers reigns. "Come on boy, it's time for you to poop"
"You shall yet live to regret your thoughtless words and actions, mortal" Crusher threatened
"Shutup. You used to be cool"
Mr LoverLover
Who is that scruffy dwarf?
It didn't matter to his kin that Dain could move the earth with a thought; that's undwarfish. It didn't matter that he could hear the wishes of the stones; rocks were for breaking or carving. Dain found himself alone in the foreign land that was his home.
One might call it fate then, when during a tour attended by a Tsarian diplomat, there was an Aberration attack. Jumping quickly in front of the confused group, Dain coaxed the tunnel's rock walls into action and sealed off the passage, crushing the monsters that had almost reached him. The grateful envoy mentioned this to the Hold's Chief Engineer, who certainly didn’t keep his rank by missing opportunities. Dain was quickly promoted to Special Permanent Attache to the Tsarian Council of Magi and the next day found himself on the surface for the first time, headed for Tsar.
After a few weeks of travel sickness and sore hindquarters, Dain found himself even further out of his depth in the city of Tsar. Given no special duties by the clan and all but forgotten by the envoy, Dain was drawn to the sewers below the city, searching for a connection to the earth. These being the infamous catacombs of Tsar that he had wandered into, he was quickly set upon by an Aboleth. During the difficult battle, Dain found and drew upon the same power that he had felt back at home; the earth's power. As he channeled Nature's hatred of the foul creature into the pulsing stone walls of the sewer, something clicked inside him and he felt bizarrely peaceful.
Later, a guard patrol sent to investigate a possible cave-in dug his unconscious form out of the rubble. Captain Tolah remarked that she had never seen a smiling dwarf before, and that it was creepy. After they found the smeared remains of the particularly dangerous foe along the passage floor, Dain was quickly offered a new career that he took to with gusto.
Dain went back to that cave-in during his next day off and cleaned it up good as 'new'. He kept one small pebble, however, and hung it around his neck. When questioned about it, he just says that it keeps him safe.